Recently, I felt like my faith was losing steam. My zeal and enthusiasm for God was draining away, kind of like a car leaking oil. You can put in more oil, but it keeps leaking out.
Satan was putting doubts in my mind, even if only briefly.
I couldn’t feel God. I didn’t feel like praying. I didn’t even feel like going to church. I didn’t feel like reading my Bible. I just wanted to watch Madam Secretary, play games on my Ipad, and eat.
But instead, I did pray ( although without emotion). I did go to church. I did read my Bible. And I continued to write my blog. I went through the motions, all the while Satan whispered lies in my ear. At the time, I was ashamed because I thought they were my thoughts!
But Jesus said, “When (Satan) lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies.” John 8:44 .
But then God . . .
Then, in church, we sang, Jesus Draw Me Nearer by Keith Getty. As I sang the words, I knew God was explaining things to me.
May this journey bring a blessing,
May I rise on wings of faith;
And at the end of my heart’s testing,
With Your likeness let me wake.
God was testing my heart! I realized that God was making me stronger. If I lost all emotion, all feeling and joy, would I still pray? Would I still read His Word? Would I still serve Him?
Yes, Lord. I will. Let me pass the test. Make my heart pure. Make me strong.
Did God let Satan test me? I think He did. Once I realized that I was in a test, I became strong because I knew those thoughts of doubt were lies from Satan. I knew God wanted to make me stronger.
So next time your joy disappears, it seems like God is far away, or something happens that you don’t understand – maybe you’re taking the same test I just took. Maybe God is making you stronger!
“Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.” James 1:2-4 MSG
“The crucible for silver and the furnace for gold, but the Lord tests the heart.” Proverbs 17:3 NIV
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