I want to make a confession. I’ve already confessed this to the Lord. Now, I openly confess it to you. Praying seems like another thing on my “To Do” list. (I can barely type these words.) It is so terrible! What’s wrong with me? I’m supposed to love prayer.
Should anyone dare to confess such a horrible sin? Guess what? God already knows whatever it is that we’re ashamed to admit to Him.
I decided to write this confession in my prayer journal. Honestly, it took a few minutes for me to actually write the words down! I had to remind myself, He already knows. He already knows!
I followed this confession with a heart-felt request.
Lord, Forgive me. I want to look forward to prayer time. I want a more intimate relationship with you through prayer. Help me. Teach me. Teach me.
Romans says “Everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope.” (Roman 15:4) In other words, the Old Testament will teach us and encourage us! I decided to focus my study time on the book of Psalms, and I began to see how open and real David was with God.
“In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation.” Psalm 5:3
As I read through the Psalms, I thought, David wrote down his prayers to God! He wrote down his innermost thoughts, unafraid. I will do this, too!
My desire is to be, like David, a person after God’s own heart. I love the story of David and the Psalms he wrote. There is so much for us to learn there.
God testified concerning him: ‘I have found David son of Jesse, a man after my own heart; he will do everything I want him to do.’ Acts 13:22
As I read through the Psalms, I noticed that David was completely open with God. He didn’t hide his emotions, feelings, or frustrations. (Why do I? God already knows what’s in my heart!)
David writes this at the beginning of Psalm 13, “How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart?” Psalm 13: 1-2
David also wrote down what he believed at the end of Psalm 13: “But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me.” Psalm 13:5-6
I think that sometimes I am afraid that it would be disrespectful to share my innermost thoughts (as if God wouldn’t know what was in my heart if I didn’t tell Him). But, the more secure I am in His love for me and His abounding grace, the more easily I will be able to share my most private thoughts. I think this process may be hard for me, but I know that He is able to change my heart and He is faithful.
Let us pray with the innocence of a child, unafraid to be completely real with our Father in Heaven who knows us better than we know ourselves. Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.” Matthew 19:14
“Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.” Matthew 18:2
I love the photo of this little boy. He is trusting God without reservation. He hasn’t learned about the cares of this world yet. It stirs my heart.
I know a little girl that goes to my church. She loves Jesus and she loves church. When she wakes up on Sunday morning, her first words are, “Did we miss church?!” Her mom told me, “There is no skipping church – ever. She won’t let us!”
She loves the pastor and she loves the worship leader. Actually she is bursting with love! When children are dismissed to children’s church, she runs to class. I am telling you this because I believe God is teaching me something through her exuberance and enthusiasm for God. She recently asked Jesus into her heart and will be baptized Sunday morning.
Can we find a friend so faithful, Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness. Take it to the Lord in prayer.1
We can strengthen our intimacy with God by exposing our heart to Him. What do you need to talk to God about?
This is My Journey Unscripted.
Do you know Jesus?
If you have never asked Jesus to be your Savior, you can do it now. He loves you more than you can comprehend, and it will change your life forever.
“IF YOU CONFESS WITH YOUR MOUTH, ‘JESUS IS LORD,’ AND BELIEVE IN YOUR HEART THAT GOD RAISED HIM FROM THE DEAD, YOU WILL BE SAVED. FOR IT IS WITH YOUR HEART THAT YOU BELIEVE AND ARE JUSTIFIED, AND IT IS WITH YOUR MOUTH THAT YOU CONFESS AND ARE SAVED. AS THE SCRIPTURE SAYS, ANYONE WHO TRUSTS IN HIM WILL NEVER BE PUT TO SHAME.” ROMANS 10:9-11
1)From the hymn, “What a Friend We Have in Jesus”, by Joseph M. Scriven and Charles C. Converse.